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This morning was my weigh in day!  I was a bit nervous to look at the numbers!!!   I wasn’t religious with my food intake this past week unfortunately, but I did drink all my water EVERYDAY!  And I’m happy to report….I’m 3 pounds down this week!  That’s a total of 6 pounds in 2 weeks!  Yah me!    I was kind of surprised, but I’ll take it! 

ok…so I blew it last night!!  After working all day yesterday, I was lazy and didn’t want to cook dinner.  So we made frozen pizzas!  And I ate half a pizza myself!  What did I do??  Now I’m feeling guilty and needed to vent about it!  I’ve done so good this week.  I even lost 3 lbs this past week too!  And yesterday I was a good until dinner.  I had a good breakfast, healthy snacks and lunch, but last night for dinner I got lazy and decided pizza was quick and easy for the family.   I know life is all about choices and this was a bad choice.  I wish I could change that decision, but I can’t.  I need to learn from it and move on, right? 

Now tomorrow we have a birthday party at a local Pizza place for my youngest son.  There is nothing but PIZZA there either.  Yes there is a salad bar, but if you know me…I won’t touch it with a ten foot pole.  I don’t like lettuce or hardly eat any vegetables!  So now I feel like I’ve totally ruined my weekend meals wise.  I’m going to try and eat a little before we go to the party so I don’t over eat. 

Whew…I just needed to vent about my misstep and now I can move on…I’m going to try and exercise that half a pizza off today between cleaning the house (washing my kitchen and dining room floors by hand!) and getting on the elipitcal too.  Who knows, maybe I’ll go outside with the kids and play in the snow or build a snowman…

So,  where should I start??   With the good news or the bad??  That’s always the question right? 

Well I know I like the good news, so I’ll start there.  I stepped onto the scale last night & saw I had lost 3 pounds in the last week!  High Five me!!  My hard work of keeping track of my intake and drinking all that WATER has paid given me dividends!  :)  That’s such a great motivator in itself.   I was so excited that I had lost 3 pounds, I told my husband.  He was very happy & supportive too!

Now…for the bad news.  Well, we live in Wisconsin and it’s winter.  What do you suppose I woke up to this morning?  You guess it, SNOW!  The beautiful white, powdery, cold stuff.  We’re expected to get 6-7  inches of this white stuff before it’s all said and done.  Then the blowing and drifting will start overnight…So instead of my daily walks during lunches & breaks because it’s too cold and slippery outside, I get to sholved snow when I get home!  And it’s the heavy, wet snow too!  oh I can see myself now all dressed up like an eskimo or something trying to keep warm…I’ll be hopefully burning all those nasty calories while I’m out there having sooo much fun (NOT!). 

Today is my baby’s birthday.  He turns 7 years old.  It’s suppose to be a happy day for all of us, but I always seem to have a reality check of my life on my children’s birthdays.  Not only is he growing up before our eyes, but as he gets older so am I.  Isn’t that kind of scary to think about?  I cherish every moment I can with my children, but their birthdays really make me stop and reflect on how my life is presently and where life is heading.  And my baby boy’s birthday is always the hardest for me to get thru.  Does anyone else have this problem too?  I sometimes feel silly for being so nostalgic.   He’s my baby and I know there won’t be anymore babies in my life until, dare I say it…grandchildren.  Ok, so there’s neices and nephews and friend’s babies… but they are not my own flesh and blood. 

As I’m sit in this spot reflecting, I look at how my life currently is.  Am I happy?  What have I done this past year?  What haven’t I done that I should’ve?  What could I do?  What could I change?  And that brings me to where I am now.  I want change!  I want to have a happier lifestyle for me.  I don’t want to change my family or friends, just my habits.  It’s well past time to do this!  I’ve let myself go for so long because I’m always worried about everyone else except myself.  I’m going to meet my goals step by step.  This is a roller coaster ride and I’m seated, strapped in and ready for the ride.  Look out world, here comes the first big coast downhill…

Well, here I am.  I finally have set a goal and decided this is it!  It’s time for me to ‘woman up’ and stick to it this time!  I’m sick of looking at myself in the mirror and being disgusted by what is looking back at me!  Three or even two years ago, I didn’t look like this.  After each of my babies I was able to lose most of my weight that I gained.  Then why is it that I can’t manage to lose it now?  Why is it that I keep packing on the pounds now?  In the past two years, I’ve added close to 40 pounds on the scale!  What is up with that?  I’m done with asking why!  I’m resolved to helping myself succeed this time!  I’m hoping to be able to meet my mini goal by the time I head to Las Vegas for vacation in just 11 short weeks!  In order to do that, I must work hard and be accountable for everything that I do or don’t do towards my goal!  I know it’s a big goal to have, but we need to start somewhere, right?